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Post by cinnamongirl on Jun 19, 2019 6:36:24 GMT
I shouldn't listen to that song, or to Judy Garland singing Somewhere Over the Rainbow.
Made the mistake of listening to some songs that get to me tonight. Now, feeling lonely, and having a pity-party.
I have a good job, and credit rating. I'm cute, and smart, educated. I have interesting hobbies.
Why can't I find someone?
Quote from Elizabeth Jolley's Cabin Fever:
"I experience again the deep-felt wish to be part of a married couple, to sit by the fire in winter with the man who is my husband. So intense is this wish that if I write the word husband on a piece of paper, my eyes fill with tears."
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Post by Deleted on Jun 19, 2019 9:41:15 GMT
No, I'm not lonely. I was lonely in my relationships and that seemed much sadder to me.
They really say those who seek can't find because the lesson must be learned sooner or later to be content in yourself, to really enjoy your own company because one thing you can be sure of in life is your relationship with yourself is constant.
Neediness affects things and those who are sensitive can feel it. And mostly, when you put your sense of happiness into another's hands, you are setting yourself up for disappointment every time.
We are responsible for our happiness. Another can't and shouldn't do it for us, for then we imagine they can hurt us emotionally too, which isn't true. We create our state, always.
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Post by cinnamongirl on Jun 19, 2019 18:18:03 GMT
I know all these things- I'm just venting. Please allow me my vent.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 19, 2019 19:46:53 GMT
Wasn’t denying your feelings. I responded to your questions because I thought you were really asking them. It sounded like you were suffering and asking for help, so I shared what I've learned from my life, that's all.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 19, 2019 20:09:16 GMT
Sometimes I fret that I'm going to 'grow old and die alone', but then I think, well hell I could die tomorrow and all that fretting would be for naught~
Pretty much snaps me out 'my' particular pity party~
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Post by Deleted on Jun 19, 2019 23:07:39 GMT
Hopefully your rant is over and you can relax in the comfort of other women sharing their feelings too. At one time I really wanted to have a man in my life. For me the release came when I accepted that I'm not relationship material.
No one wants to think that of themselves, but, for me, it's true. I cannot compromise or share my space. I'm not going to ruin some poor guys life.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 19, 2019 23:09:09 GMT
I've had moments where I've missed a particular individual, but really don't experience any general sense of loneliness for the most part. I've always had a wide array of interests to keep me occupied and easy access to other people.
As I've gotten older, I've needed more alone time, and boy, has this caused problems with relationships. No matter how utterly gaga I might be over a woman, I still need a few days out of the week to myself.
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Post by cinnamongirl on Jun 19, 2019 23:24:14 GMT
I was asking rhetorically.
I think it's gotten worse because I've just gone back to work after taking several months off.
As a nurse, I spend my 12+ hr shifts caring for others, but no one is caring for me.
A caring back or foot rub, or a snuggle at the end of a long shift would help so much.
I don't want to drive somewhere and pay a stranger for a massage, and I've had tons of alone time for many years. I have lots of hobbies I don't have the energy for with such a demanding career.
I don't want any suggestions, I just want what I want.
I have to go get ready for a date with a new guy, right now. This one has already volunteered that he has E.D.
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Post by awesomejoe73 on Jun 19, 2019 23:42:43 GMT
^^^another one?
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Post by Deleted on Jun 20, 2019 0:06:49 GMT
Yeah, really. Another one? I am worried that reading all about these E.D. stories is going to have a mental impact on me one day.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 22, 2019 18:51:52 GMT
I was asking rhetorically. I think it's gotten worse because I've just gone back to work after taking several months off. As a nurse, I spend my 12+ hr shifts caring for others, but no one is caring for me. A caring back or foot rub, or a snuggle at the end of a long shift would help so much. I don't want to drive somewhere and pay a stranger for a massage, and I've had tons of alone time for many years. I have lots of hobbies I don't have the energy for with such a demanding career. I don't want any suggestions, I just want what I want. I have to go get ready for a date with a new guy, right now. This one has already volunteered that he has E.D. Hi cinnamongirl, how did your date go with the second E.D. guy? |
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Post by cinnamongirl on Jun 23, 2019 3:04:34 GMT
It went well. We have been trying to plan a second date, but are both too busy right now. He is scheduled for a surgery which is supposed to fix the E.D.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 23, 2019 13:11:28 GMT
That's great news it was a good date! Was thinking it must have been where we hadn't heard back. Just hoping he never sees this thread.  |
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Post by Deleted on Jun 23, 2019 18:50:49 GMT
It went well. We have been trying to plan a second date, but are both too busy right now. He is scheduled for a surgery which is supposed to fix the E.D. Is he having vascular reconstructive surgery, or a penile implant? |
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Post by cinnamongirl on Jun 24, 2019 15:36:35 GMT
Supposedly "prostate banding/Urolift." Never heard of it, so I googled. It's not meant to treat E.D. I really don't think he understand's what it's about. www.urolift.com/what-is-urolift |
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